Your Second Chance

Your Second Chance

After you broke so many hearts
I gave you a second chance
The chance to learn to know me
I honored you like a king
I cherished your words
I had loved you
like that you're the only person
in the whole World
I spent almost all my time with you
on texting,phoning and chating
Like as you spent your time with me
So many different kind of words of LOVE
we expressed our strong affection
But those words are slowly blewn by the fears
that we face to a forbidden love.
The strife that we had was a part of trials
in our relationship
Intelligence was the mean source of provocant words we used bothside(s)
Tears that we lost from our eyes was the sign of our strong emotion
Emotion from our hearts that we can't hide.

You hurted me so much by telling me about your Quickies and Passion
with the Thaiwomen
You don't have any idea how it hurts me to hear that you sleep with others
You're breaking my heart without knowing how i suffered for pain.

It is not wrong to love someone
But is wrong to hurt someone,by misusing her love and trust
I haven't seen any sign of fake love as you were with me
What i only seen was the true love that you shown to my eyes
Affectionate so you are to me
And you can't pretend that you're not
I know how deep is your feelings to me
But you and I we have no time to meet often
I'm truely the Unreachable dream of you
As i never thought once to left the precious gifts of my life,
just to be with you and give you all of me.

That's true the beauty of love that we shared can't be compare
to anything in the World
But what brings to us because of this unfullfilled Love?
I know that we have no future together
The love in virtual life makes your heart sick and your head get insane
Longing,craving,missing,dreaming of real love, sex and passion every day and night
But things are impossible to do.

And it doesn't help us to love each other cause i am here and you are there.

"Pushing you away,insulting you back,it is not really the reason to hate you,but it is the only way to escape through this unreachable love between me and you."




Dedicated to: HG

Your Second Chance(Dedicated to Mr DJ from Cali.)

I gave you a second chance to came back to my life
You said baby,let's forget those strife .

But what did you do then?
You're fooling the other women around the net
Even you see me online you keep ignoring me
And first when i logged off you dropped some message to me?
You know that's the things that i really hate.

So tell me what you really want to say
By winning my heart this way
Just to break my feelings again
To see me suffering for a new pain?

It 's enough to my womanity to see your mistakes
Telling me your loving words which are just fakes.

Be honest and i'll do it back to you
If you think that you are happy with someone else
Then you can leave, i don't want to stop you.

This is your second chance
But if you don't care...
This could be also your last chance my dear
In your game i don't want to play it again
Because i fear....
And for the rest of your life i'll let you dance.

Between Love And Hartred

You are the fire that burns in my heart
Between love and hartred the feelings i had for you.

It was like a bittersweet symphony the composition of our relation
Full of love and affection but lack of satisfaction.

For so much Love is really unhealthy
It's breaks, it burns deeply
Missing of togetherness each day
Makes us our life more unhappy.

Tears(Unfullfilled Love)

The tears that i've lost for you it was the sign of pain

The pain of unfullfilled love
I know that falling with you it wasn't an intention
But it comes to every human life without any expectation.
I don't wanna cry a tear for you, but i do
I don't know if it was worth to waste my time with you
I can't explain
Sometimes i'm out of my mind
I don't want to fall inlove again
My heart is blocked
A new love i don't want to find.
So many lonely nights i've experienced
Laying alone in my bed room
Spending my time with you on the phone
After our conversation my hearts is aching more and more
Oh God, my thoughts is anywhere
Asking in the air why you're so faraway my lil prince?
Loving you in distant makes me cry
Anticipating of you everytime
But you're not there
If only i can fly?

Fate In Love

Our love was so sweet
I thought everything will never end
But suddenly the story has change
You just forgot our promises.

Even you will leave me
My love will never fade
Because you're everything in my life
I'll wait until you come back.

Is this my fate in love?
For LOVE i have no fortune
Is this if your love is so true?
It's just to play?
And should be left alone?

You Can Just Hold Me

Just hold me close to you
In your dreams
I wanna feel your love
I know that you loved me
Useless that you lie
Telling others that i'm not the one for you
But everything can't be turned back
Where we started
Your love it's just useless now
Cause i can't be with you.

I know that you loved me
And i'm not wrong
You love me so true
I feel all your love when i'm with you.

Useless that we lost in each others eyes
So keep my love to you
And i'll do the same here
Even you're out of my sight
And i'm out of your mind
Usless that our love is over now
Be happy with your life over there.

You can just talk with me in your fantasy
You can just hold me in your dreams
Useless that our love is over now
You can just kiss me in your dreams
Cause you can't see me.

Useless that our love is over now
You can just hold me in your dreams my dear
You can just hold me in your dreams forever.

As You've Been Gone

As you been gone a part of my life dies
You tear my heart into pieces
Sadness that never lies.

I'm out of control
My body felts so weak
Crying alone like a fool.

You are the only reason
The one who made me sad
A careless person.

Look at me now
You left me in the jail of love
I want to escape but i don't know how.

I am full of dispair(s )
My heart is burning
I can't live without you anymore
Why do love so unfair?

Let Me Remember

Let me remember that night,

Under the moonlight and stars -

For it was then, you held my hand and kissed me.

Let me remember that night forever,

Beneath the moonshine and stardust -

For it made me feel as if you were still mine and the way we were.

Let me remember that night with a smile,

Let's not war it with our sad good-byes -

For it was then I felt so complete for the last time.

Goodbye My Love

Goodbye my love
I can't wait for you anymore
I want to move

Away from this strong feelings that i can't restrain
It was a long-long time yet that we didn't meet each other
Now, I am in the end of my patience My heart is full pain.
Goodbye my love i said
Texting you
Telling you on the phone
Every night we meet online
But it doesn't help me just to read your soundless words of I love you
Our virtual conversation makes me more sad
Because the real YOU is what i need .
Goodbye my love
Cause I'm tired of loving you in virtual life
Feel free to find someone who can love you more-
Good luck and goodbye forever my great love!

Brokenheart

Heart full of pain

You stole my smile all the time

I'm feeling so sad the way to broke our contact

It's hurt that i can't explain

i'm crying alone in my own world

Why you leave me on this sorrows

I am lost in my own fantasie

Still thinking that you are here with me.

But you can't be real anymore

The day has reach to the point

You have to say goodbye

Hope you are feeling good inside you after you broke my heart

I thought our love will never be apart

But you dont love me anymore

So we have to go separately

Even it's hard for me

I can't forget you

I can't believe that i dropped a lot of tears for you

It must have been love

But we are not suppose to each other

So it's better to stop our communication

There's nothing can help without your love to me

It makes me more unhappy to think that i love you,

But you don't love me though.

But i don't believe that you don't love me

You just fear to full in love, maybe?

It doesn't matter if you don't love me....

What should i do if you don't have a feelings to me anymore?

It feels so sad, but i hope i will overcome this misery soon

Thanks that you've touch my heart without cared.

You're Going Away

My heart is aching
I cannot deny.
I'll never be able
to tell you good-bye.

I know it's so silly.
Why do I feel so sad?
Why does the thought of you leaving
make me feel so bad?

I will miss your arms
that hold me so tight.
I will miss your kisses,
miss holding you at night.

I will miss your laugh
and the way that you smile.
Even though you are leaving
for a very short while.

You've become a part of my life
like the sun and the moon.
I depend on you honey.
Please come back to me soon!

Take with you my heart.
Take our memories too
of the times that we've shared
and know I love you

Painful Love

The most painful thing i've ever felt is loving you

hearing that you love me to

but hearing you don't want me

hearing you'll never ask going each day without you

kills my heart and soul your the only one i want

the only one i can love

the tears of pain and hurt

i have cried for you is endless

the fear i have felt the embarrassment

i have suffered the things i Would give to be by your side

the day goes so slowly

the weeks go so slow

the days so painful

the hours so cruel i've given everything up for you my life,

my work, my friends

its all about you will you ever know just how much I'm in love with you

and just how much i hate it just how much its killing me

slowly melting my sanity

your all i want forever and ever

i know u like i've always known you

i love you like god made us together

your part of me don't leave

or i shall fall one day i will tell you,

even though u already know one day i will ask you

hoping you will ask me first I'm scared,

love hurts like no other pain love kills you,

and burns your heart love breaks you

I'm scared this is the end.

Proud To Be The First...

I'm proud to be the first to know you Harti
Now i can judge you
And can discribe you with my words
In a simple way...

You are not the best person
But at least i'm proud to learned to know you
To experienced all those things
Between bad and good

Now i know what's the difference between love and hatred

You taught me how to love
But then you taught me also how to hate

By telling me all those shit...
Like how your first date
How you like that woman in your first meet..

Oh so sweet,but after 2 or three weeks of adoring and loving her
You started to hate her

And telling me that you better don't met that girl
Oh so shit that you can't love only one
But a real butterflyman you are
Whose always flying from one flower to another.

Like as what you did to Lina
Linda,Lillian and the thaiwomen
Whom you adored so well
Even they are married
But you love to spend your time with them
As you only hunting some old and married asiansgirls
So you have no reposibilities to them
You just need their love
And take it all forgranted
As you always did.

Lillian was sweet and young
But after you kissed her
You said she's not the one for you
And not really the best
You called her as Psychopath
Cause she begun to fall in love to you...
Are you sick or what?
Please try to be better Harti, crazy like always is not the best
As you don't deserve to beloved by the women here
You're just a lonesome and a poorguy
And not others...
So don't wonder if noone will love you back
cause you are not the best too...your personality don't count so much but
your character..
Your slimy words are not enough
To let the women to love you!
If you have nothing to offer as only your depressive look
And your lonely smile...
No woman will love u too.

If in the next generation,,,or when i'm born again...
I won't let you in my heart again
You just left some thorn
And still i have the pain.

I can't avoid to think of you anymore
But not others as between love and hate
That aches my heart more and more
When I think of your sweetmile ,i'm melting again...
But when i recall all those nasty n bad words you used to me
I started to get insane
This is why i wrote this poems again
To minimize this strong emotion in me
And those unhealed pain!